Zach Ascot

I’ve always been in search of true love. I started this pursuit because I had experienced deep regret based on past memories. I needed to know if what I was feeling was true. I told myself I would not stop until I had my answer. That level of commitment meant I was willing to overcome and endure any obstacle no matter how painful. She once told me that I’d make her happy. Hearing that was so powerful and I’ve never forgotten it. So much so, it haunted me years later through the regret of inaction. I had to follow this calling to happiness. It was not only the chance to love someone but also the chance to be loved. I remembered how she always used to believe in me at a time when not many others did. As a young person who was not used to much kindness or praise, this level of belief without reason meant the world. It helped shape how I saw myself. I wholeheartedly believed I had finally found someone who truly understood me. None of it was true. The person who was meant to mean everythin...

Lost to your troubled world, I gave you my word, At the end of your pain, I’ll be there and I will wait for you. Conversing in the silence, Words that softly caress, A gentle understanding, Signs of something unconditional, Leaves a heavy comfort. Challenged to find the light buried in the abyss, The demons are waiting for me, But I will wait for you. Soon to sprout horns, Harsh whispers, The demons begin their toil. I raise a finger to their lips. I will wait for you. Remaining strong whilst followed by a deadly entourage, Staring down at an empty hand, Wondering if it’ll ever be completed by yours. I will wait for you. When it’s quiet, Cold and empty, And every slight sound can be heard, Nothing hurts, But nothing smiles, Exposing the truth of who you are, The chance to listen and absorb what’s truly on your mind. What do you hear? The ungodly wail of demons. They’re starting to dislike you, Distrust you, Di...

5 Big Goals I'm working on to Achieve! - INSANELY AMBITIOUS!! For those of you who have followed my journey for a while, you'd know I originally had '6' big goals. Actually, strictly speaking I started with 7, but that's another story! Number 6 (writing a book) has been removed from the list! Did I achieve it? Before we get to that, let's go over my current 5 big goals I'm working on to achieve! 1. Improve my fitness (Rocky style montage) At the moment I exercise every other day. My goal is to get to the point where I feel content and happy with my routine. How do I measure that? For starters, I want to be able to do the routine relatively pain free. Healthy movements which are sustainable. The routine must be basic and not too reliant on equipment. This is so I can carry on exercising in different environments with limited space and equipment. I've always been a big fan of the Rocky movies. I remember watching ...

Beneath the sun in shining Veneto, Wondering freely alongside warm radiant houses, Clinging vines embrace the structures, Pastel streets developing, Town life unfolds slowly, Strolling as you wonder, How did you ever forget this? There's love in shining Veneto, Love around every corner, Love propped up by every barstool, Love flies by on every cycle, Enough love to make you a fool. Love in every face that passes, Love on the street, A chance for bliss, In those you meet. I'll learn the language you'll soon see, Then you'll finally be with me. Away from what I know, We'll take our time, To watch our vineyard grow. A new love will mature so pure and true, My answer to life was always you. Take my hand, Lead me to where things don't hurt any more, A small touch of kindness travels a long way, Bypassing cynicism and misery, A new love anchored and here to stay. As our feelings build, The vineya...

A poem I wrote.  The Rescue  Breathing thick troublesome air, Stranded on a platform, Deep out at sea, Standing there indefinitely.  Fixated on the horizon, Waiting for salvation, In a childlike state, Envious of seabirds, Longing for a simpler existence. Return to your makeshift bed, Unforgiving whilst trapped in your head, A life consumed by dread. Looking out to lonely waters, Praying for rescue, Or some form of understanding. One day you catch your reflection, Pictured in the burnt blazing water, Another unsuccessful sunset, Reveals your answer. You have to save yourself, Nobody is coming to save you. You've got to paddle this platform, With all your effort and might, It may take weeks, Months, Or even years, A gruesome struggle lies ahead, But one day you will reach land. Changed forever, But alive.  ...

This is a poem I wrote. When Hopelessness meets hope.  Hope Hill The rain drains down the pane, Falling faster, Let the chaos reign. The tired town strains but holds, As a view of madness unfolds. Staring outwards now enticed, Restless hounds uneasy, Clouds awake, The downfall pours, Streets empty as perceived, A chance for solitary, Your pain relieved. Now hurry, Run, Be quick, If you want this trance to stick. Nothing hurts, Nothing matters, Even with your dreams in tatters. Venturing out beyond all reason, Embracing the lonely season. Content with misery, Legs beating down harder than the fall, An incline slippery and steep, As the world vanishes beneath your feet, Consumed by clouds that weep. Reaching the top wasn’t worth the view, A bleak outlook faces you. Even though it hurts still smile, As storms like these only last a while. Make your way down, Rejoin the town, As if it never happe...